Monday, June 19, 2006
went for mass in school uniform again. fr. joe said mass. i think he has something against people wearing school clothes for mass. i mean, yes. its not the best and therefore should not be worn to church but still. really. i cant help it right?
my middle finger is still hurt. just lightly touching it creates a stupid sting. well, i'll just wait.
OH!! and speaking of middle fingers, i just realised today that mr [leonard] tan uses his middle finger to play the fourth valve on the euphonium. WAHkakakaka... xD
didnt have divine office today. fr brian take day off i think. haha. his office was also locked. which reminds me. i need to hand in the balai cip form by friday to hsi wen. the final day is actually saturday and im not counting on saturday to be a practise day due to the Thompson CC performance. near my house. i know. but it ends at 5.30 and i have to be in church by 5.30. actually, not need, but want. cuz then can have a place to sit in church cuz its a one-mass-only thing by the archbishop.
i really need to get der vogelhandler and start listening and practising. im total crap. i mean yes, i know and can get the rhythms but my high notes are shitt making practically the entire song shitt cuz its high note after high note. it sucks. really.
meifern rebonded her hair. she came back frm overseas liao. ongy also came for band. got to see the ear stud on her left ear. it looks horrendous. cuz its off centre. but wth right? haha. sir is probably mad at me cuz i kept talking to ongy. but its not as though i wasnt listening to him. and my cough is really horrible today. must be the keish[sp?] i had for breakfast. cuz it wasnt so bad before that.
choir prac was in the church today. im not really looking forward to the praise and worship sessions on wednesday and thursday. cuz the aunties and uncles are pnw leaders. it sounds horrible and retarded. really. friday is not that bad cuz the songs are nicer and the pnw leaders arent old.
have i said anything about the japanese comedy hard gay? of gosh i'll just say anyway. its getting to me. ARGH! the people around me are going nutters about it. my sister, my brother, my cousins, my friends... it just... GAY really... and its just so wrong. the tight clothes andthe pelvis thing that makes him look like hes having sex with the surrounding air... really. gross. but it is entertaining. and i really cant believe im watching it.
tomorrow theres a balai outing to sentosa. i want to go. but i got homework. my friends said they would help me. but im still not going cuz i have tuition. i cant believe u forgot all about tuition. i actually was thinking of going for mass tomorrow. and going for confession before that. im really horrible. all my sins. most of which im unaware of. i seriously need to go for confession more aften. and also start going to the adoration room. just to be there. the silence is really comforting. i need it. im a lousy catholic. ah what the heck, im a lousy human being. thats just it. im horrible. horrible-ly selfish... selfcentred... lazy... etc.
im looking forward to the feast day mass. just for it and also theres an alterior motive. which you would/should know by now.
another reason why i'll most probably suffer the second death and never experience heaven.
Posted by Ce at 10:33 pm